Dear Diary – This is not the first time I’ve been cock-blocked on the diary by equipment and performance anxiety of the model. Remember this one that chickened out recently? It happens. This is real life. I can’t plan or have safety nets for everything with these girls. It’s part of what makes this whole thing so fucking exciting. If you only knew how many turn-downs I get that you don’t hear about. It is part of the game. But anyways, let’s get onto what happened…
The other girl came over, today. 20yo Maw. She is a Thai-Malaysian mix and you can kind of see that. She’s definitely not typical Thai. She arrived on time and had a red dress on without a bra. Could see some side-boobs already and got very excited about this fuck. But – she was acting a bit like a diva from the start, smoking a cigarette outside and hard to give a smile. But once started, she seemed to like the posing until I asked her to undress. She didn’t want to do the shoot anymore, even though she had agreed on it before and was told by Dee what was going to happen today. After a bit of talking, I knew that this was not going to happen and I sent her home. Bitch.